This man cat still got fight

I woke up this morning all ready to send mu shue to Kayla. I had said my goodbyes last night and made my peace with what would take place. I walk up to the most bootfal purring I ever heard cuddled with me was mu shue. I said Mu shue I love you so much Today I set you free to be with your sole mate. I got up expecting him to just lay there he followed me to the eating room and begged for food. How could I say No? I feed him a whole can of food that he gladly gobbled down and begged for seconds. his I dont feel good face gone. Replaced by a bight eyed fluffy tailed mu shue. He then started to gromm him self I not seen him do this in a few weeks. Next he then went over and found a broken hair eleastic and started to play with it. I keeped going back and fouth on what to do. I said to him Mu shue your going to see Kayla and he bit me. I was sure I was loseing my mind. I then desied to go to the vet and do it as i did not want him to suffer. he proced to bit the vet as she tryed to get the cathere in him. She looked at me and said for a dyeing cat he sure has alot of spunk. She left me alone to say my good bye. He climbed out of my arms and started knocking off the trash can lid and rolling all over the floor. He just looked good. Bettter then I seen him in Mouths. His eye stoped leaking completly today and there open and he just wants to be around me. I know the time is comming but another cat owner told me if you have any dount don't do it. I had dought. Mu shue had dought He came home was happy to be home ate a hole half of can of food currled up on his pong chair like nothign had happened. I am sorry I such a wimp but How could I not get those last few good days with him. I gave him 12 years How could i not give him a few more days????